About Me

film: queer cinema, animation, experimental, body horror, fantasy horror, cult films, sci-fi

music: shoegaze, dream pop, synthpop, trip hop, ethereal wave, hypnagogic pop, liquid drum n bass, post-punk, twee pop, ambient, idm, neofolk

books: poetry, fiction, critical theory, non-fiction, literary fiction, philosophy, ergodic literature

infj • cancer sun • libra rising

neurotic, extremely introverted. keenly observant and intense to a fault. the internet world is my solace.

i love spending my time obsessing over various topics that pique my interests. if i'm not in my room or at work, you can find me at the local library or thrift shops.

my interests include:

fashion, academia, botany, tea, fragrances, nature, cinema, music, nostalgia, picnics, museums, art, philosophy, anthropology, radical feminism, travel, libraries, poetry, gardens, fairies, sweets, cartoons, people watching, memory making, record stores, writing, bookstores, anatomy, medicine, indie web design, and [click for more]

adult swim bumps, alchemy, ambient music, anarchist bookfairs, anatomy, ancient egypt, ancient egypt artifacts, anima/animus, animals, animation, anne carson, anthropology, anti-capitalism, apophenia, aquatic life, art museums, asceticism, astral projection, atman, audio, avant-garde poetry, ballet performances, baroque, beauty and makeup, body horror, brahman, buddhism, cave systems, celebrity as modern myth, charles baudelaire, CIA gateway process, cinema, coffee, collective unconscious, commodity fetishism, consciousness, critical theory, cubism, cult films, dadaism, david foster wallace, deconstructing masculinity, deconstructing neoliberalism, deleuze, demiurge, desserts, diet and health, disease and diseases processes, dolls, dream analysis, dream pop, dreamwork, drum n bass, e.e. cummings, eros, erowid, ethereal wave, etymology, experimental film, fantasy horror films, feminism, fibonacci's sequence, flowers and plants, folklore, food horror, fractals in nature, georges bataille, gertrude stein, gods and goddesses, gothic art, guy debord, hawaii, hans bellmer, hares and bunnies, healthcare, hypnagogic pop, hypnosis, idm, impressionism, indie web design, jenny holzer, jorge luis borges, jungian analytical psychology, jungian shadow, karaoke, labyrinths and mazes, late 90s-2000's classic trance music, learning about addiction, libraries, liminal spaces, lolita and egl fashion, louis wain, malcolm x, mark fisher, mary oliver, meditation, mental health, mental illness, mina loy, mk ultra, monomyth critcism, mystics, myths, natural fabrics, neofolk music, nick land, nietzsche, norse mythology, nursing, old school house music, omega 3s, paris, perfumes, peter singer, philosophy, photography, portland, post-punk, psychology, puerh tea, punk shows, queer cinema, rare animals, rare books, rare medical anomalies, sacred geometry, san francisco, sappho, sardines, schizophrenia, sci-fi films, selenology, shoegaze, simone de beauvoir, simone weil, slavoj zizek, social anxiety, socialism, society of the spectacle, sociology, space-time, spinoza, spirals, spoken poetry, stationary, st. teresa of avila, studying systemic racism, surrealism, symbolism, symbolist art, synthpop, taoism, taxidermy, tea, tertium organum, thanatology, thanatos, the cosmic egg, the cosmic giggle, the feminine mystique, the golden ratio, the hero's journey, the human brain, the minotaur, the moon, the panopticon, the primordial womb, the spinal cord, theology, thrift shopping, toni morrison, trip hop, twee pop, vintage fashion, wabi-sabi, witch hunts, women's liberation, writing, xenofeminism, Übermensch

film
kamikaze girls, dr. strangelove, taste of cherry, close-up, inland empire, m, eraserhead, in the mood for love, koyaanisqatsi, melancholia, Hausu, solaris, spirited away, 2001 a space odyssey, rabbits moon, chungking express, fallen angels, helter skelter, vertigo, mysterious skin, fantastic planet, black orpheus, mr. klein, the cremator, haxan, sound of metal, tetsuo: the iron man, coffee and cigarettes, center jenny, audition, frances ha, uncle boonmee who can recall his past lives, pi, august in the water, possession, a woman under the influence, the piano teacher, 3 women, woman in the dunes, dreams, jeanne dielman, 23, quai du commerce, 1080 bruxelles, ikiru, eyes without a face, the flying luna clipper, nowhere, perfect blue, puce moment, ghost in the shell, paprika

music
cocteau twins, love spirals downwards, ariel pink, john maus, part time, radiohead, deftones, stereolab, insides, slowdive, air, the dismemberment plan, massive attack, portishead, aphex twin, boards of canada, sweet trip, candy claws, g-schmitt, j dilla, nujabes, 800 cherries, slint, animal collective, geneva jacuzzi, the wake, ween, swans, woo, the smashing pumpkins, bowery electric, airiel, jessica pratt, felt, cibo matto, the sundays, seefeel, thievery corporation, machine girl, beach house, algebra suicide, alice in chains, cfcf, death grips, lsd and the search for god, 2hollis, molchat doma, capsule, strawberry switchblade, death in june, current 93, esthero, nine inch nails, global communication, goldfrapp, at the drive-in, slint, brian eno, isabel’s dream, my bloody valentine, robin guthrie, gregory and the hawk, altered images, piero piccioni, whirr, boa, animal collective, sewerslvt, greenflow, susumu yokota, the avalanches, sneaker pimps, drop nineteens, madvillain, dean blunt, kitty craft, kylie minogue, the cure,

books
house of leaves, frankenstein, consider the lobster, beloved, the bell jar, the little prince, perfume; the story of a murderer, a little life, lapvona, the people in the trees, autobiography of red, eros the bittersweet, the vegetarian, the denial of death, a supposedly fun thing i'll never do again, theory of the young-girl, the bluest eye

food and drink!
root beer floats, maraschino cherries, carrot cake, tiramisu, flan, creme brulee, lychee sake, chocolate, katsu curry, indian food, pad thai, sushi, pizza, samosas, spanakopita, sourdough bread, enchiladas, cherries, pineapple, chocolate chip cookies, coffee, tea, boba, vegetarian, burritos, oatmeal raisin cookies, birria tacos, a giant bowl of pho, green goddess salad, bagels and coffee, potato chips, tuna sandwiches

perfume notes
i like: roses, lychee, vanilla, tea scents, lavender, praline, orange/mandarin and orange blossom, apple, fresh florals, fig, peony, lemon, iris, amber, raspberry, black currant, and *some* white florals like tuberose and lily (depending on how well it is blended).
ok: cherry, musk, bergamot, leather, jasmine, plum, strawberry, honeysuckle,
dislike: gardenia, animalics, tobacco, honey, ambergris, salt notes, ylang ylang, incense, almond, aldehydes, spices, resins, cinnamon, patchouli, geranium, frangipani, mimosa, saffron, star anise, licorice, oud, benzoin, rum, cotton candy, yellow florals

video games
yume nikki, it takes two, don't starve, yume 2kki, disco elysium, hylics, life is strange, okami HD